Internal thoughts…and my writing.

I wonder sometimes if creating a book is worth it. I loved writing it. I loved how my mind wandered into a world unknown. I loved knowing that no matter what I would be proud of my work. Since Surviving is my first book I knew it wouldn’t be perfect. I tried and that is all I will ever be able to do. Let me tell you something: I AM NOT CONFIDENT. I have never been confident at anything except singing (because I will admit, I am good at that, but how am I supposed to make a career of that?!). I played the flute in college and my downfall was the fact that I was not confident enough. I struggled because I was so afraid of what everyone would think of my playing. The reason I kept playing was the fact that I loved music so much. And the fact that I love to be on stage.

Writing is another outlet for me and I will continue to do it. I will continue to learn. I will get better. I know these things, but when I see one (or now two) of the very few books I’m selling returned…I feel helpless inside. I am a very emotional person. I always have been and putting my work out there for the world to see was a risk for my fragile heart. I read all these things talking about these books that are out there overflowing the market that are basically poop, only bringing down other’s hard work. And I wonder to myself, is my book one of those? Did I put myself out there only to help with overflow that is a load of crap? Because, come one, there are “books” out there that should not be out there. I’m not talking about erotica or any genre. I am talking about the writings that are halfway put together. The writings that have mistake after mistake after mistake.Sure, Surviving has plenty of mistakes, but I’m not talking about the mistakes that can easily be missed by an author who wants to put his or her work out there but barely has a dime much less money to hire someone to edit it (like myself). 

What about all this marketing bull-hockey? I don’t even want to go there. I’ve spent way more on my book than I have earned. I wonder if I’ll ever actually make a profit. 

Oh, hang on a moment. I think I went on a rant…

Anywho…writing. 

I am a person. I am not perfect, no matter how I wish I could be. I have to remind myself of this often. As I was saying earlier, I am an emotional person so when I see those books returned, I feel so terrible. But when someone actually likes my story and understands it…wow. My heart feels like a new spring flower opening, blooming, taking in the bright sunlight. But no matter what I tell myself: “you are writing for yourself”, “it doesn’t matter what other people think”, or “as long as I’m doing something I love”, it still hurts my heart that I’m not a better writer or that I didn’t make my story as “great” as it could have been. 

No matter what, I will keep on keeping on and learn from my mistakes and successes. 

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My ramblings

Once again, I am sitting here at my laptop surrounded by sounds of the movie Frozen. I’m not sure how many times my family has watched it now, but I do know that it is A LOT! 

Did you know…well, of course you didn’t because you are a virual stranger and I haven’t told you yet (unless you’ve seen my facebook page)…that I received my paperback copy of SURVIVING yesterday??? It is HUGE! It’s a 6X9 (which was the recommended size). I actually wish it was smaller. Stupid me forgot to insert page numbers so it is pagenumberless…Yep. Oh well, I don’t care. I am terrified now though. I didn’t mind so much when it was only in ebook form. It was just out there, now…I don’t know, it just feels more real. I suppose all new authors feel this way. 

Look!

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Okay, enough gushing about that.

see you all soon!

J.L. Sprague

My lost mind

Okay, at the moment I am working on promoting my latest release (also my first) SURVIVING. But anyone who has read ANY of my blog posts knows that. I am however, working on a different piece and my mind is currently swirling with the story. I wish I could share but that would just be a terrible terrible thing. I would never want to ruin a good book before it has even been written. 

So, what I wanted to talk about is my writing process at the moment. With my first book I kind of knew what I wanted to happen and in a way I made that happen. More than anything however, the story took a life of it’s own. There was an event I wanted to include in it but it never happened and really just didn’t work per the timeline and story line I set forth. I can’t tell you what it is because one day I will put it into a book. I just know it. Anyhow…writing SURVIVING I never created an outline, something I wanted to try with my current novel. I wrote quite a bit in college and I never like writing those blasted outlines no matter what subject it was for. I do admit, they came in handy at times. I don’t think I can work like that with a story. In my head, I know the story and I know about how I want it to go but it flows how it flows. It will NOT always go the way I want it to go. I tried to do it. It didn’t work. 

In the book I am currently writing, I am trying a different approach. I am starting with “parts”. It’s similar to how an outline would be constructed but it’s still different from how I’ve written outlines in the past. I am hoping it will keep the flow a little better than in SURVIVING. Does this make any sense? 

I’m hoping whoever reads this knows that this whole blog post is mostly for my benefit and no one else. I wanted to write it out where if anyone happens to have a comment on this concept he or she can do so. 

SOOOOOOO……

Anyone read Maybe Someday??????? 

I did! I did!!

Well Hello Hello

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Did you know that Enchanted Book Promotions will be promoting SURVIVING? 

Well, they will! And guess what? I’m a little more than excited about it. Like….REEEEEEaaaalllLLLYYYYyyyy!

Right now I’m not selling many books. Not many at all. I believe that women (mostly) will really enjoy my book. But no one knows that it is out there. And to be honest, I don’t want to talk about that. I want to talk about something I am super duper excited about. Colleen Hoover’s newest addition, Maybe Someday.I cannot wait! I feel like I’m on the edge of my seat tapping my toes in anticipation for this book. I have high hopes for this book, so if it falls short of my expectations….well…I’ll get over it eventually.

This morning I decided to reread Losing Hope. I’m hoping it will stave off the Colleen edginess. ALSO, talking about Ms. Colleen, I’m going to the book signing in Nashville, TN on June 7th. AND guess what? Griffin Peterson will totally be there. I’m totally going all fan-girl on everyone. I think I’ve talked about this before… I don’t know…not that it really matters because I could go on about this all. day. long.

But for sad news, I have no one to go with me. 😦 It is really a terrible terrible thing. It’s almost tragic. No one needs to miss this amazing author event. There are books to be bought and books to be signed! I must find a person to be my side kick for this event.

Hmmm…

I don’t really have anything else to ramble on about so I’ll get back to writing or watching my son or both if I can. Hopefully the voices of Mickey and Minnie Mouse won’t distract me very much.

Sick as a….

Guess what I’m doing right now. You don’t know? Well I’ll tell you. Other than writing, taking a break and writing this blog post…I’m watching Dora the Explorer. I don’t care for Dora but my three year old son does. The bad thing is, he’s not even watching it right now. I’ve also got the stinkin cold of the century so my head is in a fog. It’s not a very good fog for writing.

Guess what? Dora is going off. YaY!

So, I’m looking for a good book to read. I’ve read some good ones lately but now I need another one. I’ve recently read Demon at My Door by Michelle A. Valentine, Bite Me by C.C. Wood and Dragon Actually  by G.A. Aiken. These are actually some really good reads. I definitely recommend them. I won’t tell you about the few I’ve read that I didn’t really care for. I read all the time and I’ve got an open mind when it comes to books. I don’t even mind the occasional mishap in writing, because-come on-it is difficult to truly edit a manuscript. Plus! What new author has the money to send it to one? It would make me ecstatic to be able to send my manuscript to a professional editor.

Sorry. I felt like I ranted a little. Eek! I’m not cool with ranting.

I think I may do a giveaway soon. I’ve been thinking of doing one for my promotion at the end of March but I’m not sure.

I wanted to put this out there…My son (yes, my three-year-old) was given a wrench. Now he won’t let go of it and he thinks it is a toy. What am I going to do?

J.L. Sprague

Say Something…

I would like to say something concerning my book SURVIVING.There are sex scenes, and there are those who are opposed to sex scenes. But if you think about life, life does not exist without sex. IT IS JUST A PART OF LIFE. My book is not erotica. I’m afraid for some of my family to read it because they will assume the worst. Well, guess what? No one is going to understand the dynamic of the book unless they read the entire thing. There will be some people who will like the dynamic and those who will not. 

Oh well. All I’m saying is don’t count out a book if you do not like sex in it. Just because sex is part of it doesn’t mean it is exploitative. Make sense? 

Thoughts? 

J.L.

Downhearted

How am I supposed to get my name out there? 

How am I supposed to get my book out there? 

I should tell you, I am impatient.

I hate not knowing something and at this moment in time I feel like I’m missing some big piece to the puzzle. 

Will somebody please review my book. 

I am one in a million and I’m so very lost. How do I find the right twist and turns in this maze? I look North, South and East but the right direction is West. I am one in a million and I’m so very lost.

Go check out SURVIVING on Amazon’s kindle. Buy a copy ($2.99!) and leave a review. 

Thanks so much

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**Release Day**

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So today I released SURVIVING. Somebody needs to go buy it and review it. I have been looking forward to this day for quite some time. In my last post I posted the blurb or Synopsis for SURVIVING. Go check it out. I’m really having a blast typing that out in uppercase letters…lol.

You can go buy SURVIVING here: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00IM3ZIX6

I don’t really have anything fun to say like some. I wish I did. 🙂

Have questions? Comments? I would love to answers or hear anything!

J.L.

So confused…

The more I get into all this publishing stuff the more confused I become. Even this wordpress blog is giving me a headache and it’s not difficult at all! 

As you can see I’m a little overwhelmed right now. 

First let’s talk about my book since that is ALL that is on my mind right now. Surviving is getting seriously close to being live on Amazon. I’ve just put it up on Goodreads and I’ve been working with someone who is doing my book cover. Thankfully, it’s all okay. But then there’s the marketing issue. I’ve watched videos and read blogs and, and, and,…do you see where I’m going with this??? Should I do a blog tour? (I am highly considering this) Should I pay to have it promoted? Or should I just publish it and hope for the best? 

I think it is a pretty good book. It’s my first attempt at writing since I got out of college so I know I can get better. Throughout the entire process I learned a WHOLE LOT! I started out with one process and then it turned in to something completely different. I had ideas that I wanted to implement but then as the story progressed it just took its own form. Has anyone else’s writing ever done this? I assume it has. 

Writing has done one thing though that I’m not happy about…It has slowed down my reading progress. I must make sacrifices I supposed… 🙂 

So, If you’d like, go check out Surviving on Goodreads then see if it is published yet on Amazon. If it is, buy it (it’s not expensive!) and leave an honest review. I would soooooo love you if you did that. 

I’m not sure if everyone will understand my book without reading the whole thing, so read it. 

There are sex scenes and it has sensitive information in it so mature readers are recommended. But everything intertwines. I’m a little afraid of what some of my family will think of it. Eek! I don’t consider it erotica because although there are sex scenes, it is not all about sex. Sex just so happens to be part of the story. 

Here is the synopsis:

Living in a world where there are only lows and never highs, Jenna’s memory has trained itself to forget. Forgetting the bad was never a problem for Jenna until she forgets the one memory she never should have forgotten.
Landon has never forgotten, even when he desperately wishes he could. She haunts him. By chance they meet again but Jenna still does not remember Landon. What Landon doesn’t know is that Jenna has secrets. Secrets that change everything.
Their love for one another is the only thing that can heal years of abuse – for both of them.
When tragedy strikes memories are triggered and Jenna’s whole world changes.
Can Landon help Jenna survive at the hands of a madman?

Help me out and read. Not just my work but any book. If you have suggestions, comments or questions… contact me. I don’t mind. The more exposure the better.